Thursday, October 2, 2008

The Beautiful Letdown

So before I write my debriefing for the day, I just have to get something off my chest. I saw something today that I have been trying to avoid. Well, if I'm being totally honest, I wasn't really trying to avoid it. I'm not going to say what it was that I saw...but it reminded me of a reality that I have been trying to reshape...trying to escape. Even now, I'm caught in it. Even as I'm thinking about it, this song, The Beautiful Letdown, came to mind:

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It was a beautiful letdown
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone
Unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful letdown
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do

In a world full of bitter pain
And bitter doubts
I was trying so hard to fit in
Fit in, until I found out

I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I will carry a cross and a song
Where I don't belong
I don't belong

It was a beautiful letdown
When You found me here
Yeah, for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful letdown
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free

We're still chasing our tails
In the rising sun
In our dark water planet still spinning
In a direction no one wins
No one's won.

See, I don't belong here (I don't belong)
Well, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I will carry a cross
With a song where I don't belong
I don't belong
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
No, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I'm gonna set side
And set sail
For the kingdom come, kingdom come
Your kingdom come
Won't you let me down, yeah
Let my foolish pride forever let me down

Ah, Easy living, you're not much like the name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Would you please take me off your list
Easy living please c'mon and let me down

We are a beautiful letdown
Painfully uncool
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners, the failures, and the fools
What a beautiful letdown
Are we salt in the wound
Hey, let us sing one true tune

I don't belong here (I don't belong)
It feels like I don't belong here, yeah
It goes like I don't belong here
I don't belong (I don't belong)
Won't you let me down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
You always let me down (I don't belong)
So glad that I'm let down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
'Cause I don't belong here
Won't you let me down!


I know what Switchfoot was getting at when they wrote this song. But today, I'm twisting the context a little. It's a sadly poetic reality, when you see the tragedy in beauty; or, in the true case of the Beautiful Letdown - the beauty in tragedy. It's supposed to be a comforting thought, but that's what makes it tragic...because it's not.

Bah! Enough of this melancholy... it's time to go for a run!

-Dizzy in Denver

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Week 2 - Tuesday-Wednesday

Well friends, it just keeps getting better and better here in Denver. I'm not sure I can keep this blog thing going with the lack of comments from my friends....just kidding. It would be awesome to hear from anyone back home, but I know how busy life can be; and, my blogs are way longer than I thought they would be. I know I probably wouldn't read all of your blogs everyday...if you had blogs that is.

So, Tuesday was a pretty big day. It was y first day taking calls from Homestead customers. For some weird cosmic reason unknown, Homestead suffered the worst server crashes that they've had in 2 years - not 15 minutes after I logged in to their phone system. Coincidence? Yeah, probably; but, it is kinda funny to think of it as being my fault. What's even funnier, is I "prophesied" it on Monday. I said it was going to be "trial by fire," and that's exactly the words our supervisor, Spencer, used to describe the day. Still, it was pretty awesome to reach out and have some contact with the customers. Also, it was tenant appreciation day at the business complex we're in, and there was free BBQ. Mmmmm.

Tuesday after work was rather routine. I did the dishes, threw in a load of laundry, and went for a run. I think I'm starting to finally adjust to the altitude here. I seem to be getting more and more comfortable everyday, and I'm going for longer distances at faster paces - super sweet. I'm hoping to do some real serious workouts when I get back to Edmonton, because the extra red blood cells (or hemoglobin, depending on how you look at it - Ryan) should give me quite a significant boost in strength and endurance.

After the run I went to the Fox and Hound with my coworker, Palms. It was sweet because they were paying a dynasty Oilers game against the Bruins. They also had like 50 beers on tap, and it was their $2 pint night. Our waitress, Mallory, thought it was awesome how we called it Toonie Tuesday. :P She was cool, and is likely going to take us to a great spot she was telling us about. I had some really good crab cake sliders too! Oh! But, they weren't as good as the cakes at Peggy's Cove.

Today was much better on the phones. The servers were up all day, so I could actually get in a groove. I really like the job; it's much more gratifying to help someone succeed in their business, than simply help them categorize their taxes in QuickBooks. Let's not forget that it was Wednesday today, and that means at least one thing for sure - free lunch day at Homestead. I had a Stromboli that was soooo good, but soooo heavy. It gave me Stromboli belly, but it was worth it. The day went by really fast, as the calls are really immersive and actually pretty fun. Of course, I do know website stuff a lot better than I know QuickBooks, so I think that may have been a factor.

After work I went to Super Target to get some groceries. I spent a good hour+ in there, and filled my cart to almost overflowing. I got so many great goods that we will NEVER have in Canada. I think I spent a good 10 minutes staring at the pickle section. Everywhere I turned there were awesome frozen pizzas. I had to return some after I finally got a good look at all of them. Some of the oddest sights were Taco Bell Gordita kits, and Disney Milk. Yes... Disney brand milk. I couldn't convince myself to get it though (Sorry, Jon). We are so deprived in Canada, I don't think I'm going to come back. :P

Anyway, this is getting ridiculously long... After Target I went for my longest run yet. I accidentally hit the Stop button about 15 minutes into the run, and that totally threw me off. So, as "boot camp" punishment, I ran 8 mph for a bit, and then came down to 6mph for half an hour. I hope my knees will hold up tomorrow. It felt like I had "old man" knees today. The weird thing is my running isn't effected and my knees don't ache when I run. So for now, I'll keep pushing the envelope until it really hurts.

I actually haven't had a shower since the run, and I haven't made supper....so I better do that before it's too late.

Ciao for now friends,

-Dizzy in Denver

Monday, September 29, 2008

What an awesome Monday...

Hey Friends,

This blog is likely going to be short, because it's 11 PM and I'm pretty pooped. Although, I am still reeling after the overtime win by the Steelers on Monday Night Football. That makes it 14 straight wins at home on MNF. The Steelers started so slowly, and it looked like their season was in the tank - that's how bad they were playing. Thankfully they turned on the offense in the second half and got some timely turnovers and touchdowns. Once they had momentum it was all over but the cryin'. If you watched the game, I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did.

I'm still not getting much sleep these days. I'm still blaming it on the altitude, but that's really only part of it. I still wrestle with something that happened before I left Edmonton; but at least it's only on my mind when I slow down enough to think. So far I've been pretty busy, so it hasn't been too often. The huddle this morning was also weighing on me quite a bit, but it went really well today. All is in the past, and the events of last week are all but forgotten. Thank God! That was a huge relief. I was listening to calls all day, and I got a chance to meet some more cool people at work. One guy, Mark, was from Massachusetts, and he lived near Springfield (where the basketball hall of fame is) and his neighbour's grandfather was the guy who invented the 3-point line. Haha, how cool is that! Yeah, good times with the peeps at Homestead so far.

For lunch we went out for Chick-fil-A. It's an all chicken fast food place. I highly recommend it if you get a chance to eat there; but, don't bother on Sundays, because the owners are Mormon and all franchises are closed on Sunday! lol. I wish they knew that the Sabbath was made for man, and not the other way around. :P

After work I did the new usual: went to the clubhouse for a run. This time I explored a little, and I found a half basketball court. It had the grippiest (?) floor ever and a basket that I couldn't miss on from just about anywhere. I broke the 8 mph barrier today, which I was stoked about; but I had to alter the routine a little as a compromise. Still, I think 3+ miles is good no matter how I get it done. I was kinda peeved though, because the only TV close to my treadmill was missing the channel button...so I was stuck glancing over at Hannah Montana on the Disney channel. : That was almost enough to make me quit.

After the run I made a light snack and tried to find the football game. The TV at my place is kinda funky too. Every other channel is in Spanish, and there are blank channels mixed throughout. It feels like panning for gold when I channel surf - there's a rare piece of gold surrounded by crap. :P But, I found the game at the start of the second quarter, so it wasn't so bad. It was a funny coincidence that I made Chunky soup for dinner, because that's the official soup/meal of the NFL. I thought it was quite fitting. :)

Anyway friends, that's about all for today. Catch ya on the flip-side!

-Dizzy in Denver

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

Sunday! Sunday! Sunday!

Hey Friends,

What a relaxing day it's been. I rolled out of bed at about 10 this morning, and was plenty rested. I pretty much lounged around while working on a PowerPoint presentation for work. After that got boring I went to the clubhouse for a run. I'm getting better everyday, hitting at least 3 miles and going at a 2/.5 or 3/.5 pace (that's 2 and 3-minute intervals for every .5 degree speed increase). I haven't hit the 8.0 pace yet, but I'm close.

After the run I went back and threw my swim shorts on and went to the pool. I met a couple fellow tanners there, Jessica and Simca. They gave me the scoop on what's good to do in the area and what's good in Denver too. So far I think I'm ahead of the game in terms of getting connected here. I'm going out with Jessica and her friends sometime this week I think, but definitely making it back to the apartments with plenty of time to sleep. I definitely do not want a repeat of Thursday night...unless it happens on a Friday or Saturday. :)

The sun was great by the pool, with not a cloud in the sky. I laid around for a couple hours, which is something I truly missed doing this summer. After the tanning sesh I made some bacon and eggs for lunch. The other day I bought some Farm Fresh cage-free eggs and some center-cut bacon. I wish I had a better frying pan, because the pan I have here is a bit warped and doesn't heat evenly (I'm sure Erin can attest to what a pain that is). Either way, it was delish! But soooo filling! A nap was definitely in order after that meal.

When I awoke from my nap it was just about time for the Sunday Night Football kickoff. It never ceases to amaze me how much production goes into the NFL. I can't wait to see a Broncos game. I'm trying to get tickets to the Monday Night Football game between Denver and Tampa (apparently a big ticket here in town). I'm looking at $85 and way up to see the game. If that game falls through, then hopefully I can get some tickets for my birthday (Nov 2) when the Dolphins will be in town. That will be a great game for sure. The Bears beat the Eagles tonight, and it went right down to the wire. The CFL isn't like that at all, which is kinda why I prefer NFL.

Anyway, I'm off to bed now, and I'm a little nervous about the "huddle" tomorrow at work. Hopefully this whole blemish at work will soon be a foggy memory. Perhaps I'll post the letter that I wrote to the organization... It's quite wordy for what really shouldn't be a big deal if you look at the context. I guess I'm biased though, and the folks here don't know me yet. We'll see how it goes, and I'll keep you posted.

Oh! Speaking of posted: I put up some pics from my first week here in Denver. They're on Facebook because Blogger doesn't have good photo capabilities. You should check'em out and post comments for me. I really miss everyone back home, and the length of this trip has yet to fully sink in.

Well, that's all for now friends. Have a great Monday!

-Dizzy in Denver

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Still Spinning...

Soooo, this little trip has become something much more....controversial. Thursday was an interesting night. It was our trainer's last day in Denver before going back to Menlo Park, and we thought it would be fun to go out and have a fun night in Denver. Yeah...good idea at the time.

It was a really great evening, and I built some good relationships with my co-workers, so I guess it wasn't all bad. We did lose track of time, and ended up missing our train back to the apartments. Fortunately one of our co-workers let us stay at her apartment. The crappy thing was that we had to get up at 6 AM so we could catch the train back to Lone Tree (the suburb we're staying in). By the time we got back to our apartments it was just after 8 AM; leaving us with under an hour to get in for work. No big deal right? That's lots of time. Well, it would have been if we didn't decide to have a quick power nap.

We ended up getting in a few hours late. Still, I didn't think it would be a huge deal, because we were on our own for the day and were to work on building our websites/storefronts. Although I thought there would be zero business impact, I was very very wrong. I am now wading through the fallout of a shock wave that has been sent right on up the corporate food chain, and am embarrassed beyond a level that I never could have comprehended. I'm still a superstar, but my brand (and Intuit's) has been quite tarnished from the whole affair. If you want more details on this whole thing, then you'll have to subscribe to my blog. For now I have to look on the bright side. And this is it: I'm part of the most visible and socialized business case and all eyes were on me before; but now, all those eyes are watching twice as close now. This is a good thing, because when I now blow everyone away with my performance, I know that there are twice as many people who will recognize it. At least, this is my hope.

Well friends, today is a maintenance day for me; filled with laundry and dishes and even PowerPoint too. I think I'm going to post some pics of Denver and the office today, so make sure you check them out. I'll make a link for you all so that they're easy to find. Hmmm...maybe I'll go tan at poolside for a bit today; I think I've earned it. ;)

Ciao for now friends,

-Dizzy in Denver

Thursday, September 25, 2008

the ONION...

Hey Friends,

It's been another great day thus far. We went out for lunch today, and Palmer found a copy of the Onion in the restaurant where he bought lunch. For those of you who don't know, the Onion is "America's finest news source." It's hilarious that they make that claim, because the Onion is a satirical paper that fabricates all of it's stories. Here's a few examples of the headlines:

"Department of the exterior opens U.S. national park in Norway."
"Man succumbs to 7-year battle with health insurance."
"Tim Robbins tired of being typecast as relatively tall characters."
"McCain campaign nabs top Obama pun writer."

You get the idea. :)

I just thought I'd share the Onion with you, because it made me laugh and brightened my day - maybe it'll do the same for any of you who could use a little cheer. I'm almost on my way to downtown Denver, and I'm not sure if there will be any more blogging tonight. So I hope you all are having a good night, and make sure you stay tuned for pics; I'll be uploading them when I get some more spare time.

Ciao for now friends,

-Dizzy in Denver

Papa John's and Absinthe...

Hey Friends,

It's a bit late already (12:23 AM), so I don't have much time to blog tonight. Today was pretty awesome though; we had free lunch at work (Papa John's) and learned all about Clay Aiken coming out of the closet. haha. Not quite, we learned some other things, like how to get traffic to your website. Anyway, it was a good day at Homestead, but the rest of the day was much more memorable.

After work I went for another run at the clubhouse, and felt absolutely great for the 3 miles I put in. After that, Palmer and I went to the light rail station to catch a ride to Union Station in Denver. The sunset was beautiful across the mountains. When we arrived at Union, when wandered to a place called Rock Bottom (no irony needed here). There we had a nice sampler of some micro-brewed beers, and enjoyed some great food. From there we went to The Pour House, an Irish pub/bar with great people serving honestly. I had a great blueberry martini, and then ventured further with some absinthe. Yeah, 136 proof...black licorice...with fire. We had the best bartender - Captain Curt. He was a great person to conversate with, and we got lots of good Denver tips - particularly regarding the purchase of scalped tickets. You'll see the pics once I post them, but the Pour House was a really cool place to be - even on a Wednesday.
On the way back, Palmer and I got into a nice dialogue about religion and God. Not what I expected, but a stimulating dialogue none the less. Iron sharpens iron, and maybe co-worker sharpens co-worker. We'll see how that goes. I'm still in process on a lot of things, and I certainly welcome the fires of testing. That's really the only way to get to that pure thing you believe.

Well, that's all he wrote for this evening folks. I hope you subscribe to this blog, otherwise this exercise is entirely for my benefit, and you won't get to share in the fun. I can't wait to get back to see your faces and hear your voices; I truly miss them.

Until then,

-Dizzy in Denver